We have been back from Australia for 2.5 weeks now and more has happened in the past 2 weeks then I can recollect in the last 2 years of our marriage. This lent itself to a very slow paced, trial filled uncomfortable transition. One in which we were not prepared for. Nothing life changing/threatening or remotely detrimental. Just change. It has proven to be a change that is within our grasps, yet we have no control over.
We have been going non-stop. All very good things, but skipping out on a whole month of reality is not what most expect it to be. For both Josh and I, although not slave to our routines, find comfort in knowing the day to day, minus those unexpected blessings/trials. The last month was a whirlwind. Traveling nearly every 4th or 5th day was tiresome. Packing and unpacking was a burden, a necessary evil of sorts. We were going full on and had no time to rest, process or reflect. Something I just realized never took place. Even if I consciously sat down to do so. Once we returned we kept the nature of our fast paced lifestyle and continue to go non-stop. We still haven't processed the trip, at least I haven't.
Today is the day. A day in which I have no other plans, no one to hang out with or be any where important. As I sat on the couch this morning, I found myself breathing. Breathing deeply. Needed that oxygen to enter my lungs to expand and feel my life slow. I watched the rain. I watched the clouds roll by, from a dark grey to a lighter tint of the same grey. This season has begun and is in full swing. We didn't ease into it. We were forced into it. As is suppose we always are. Ones heart (my heart) is never happy to see summer leave and winter take a grip on our lives. I just realized that this season forces us to stop and ponder. What else is there to do, really?
Maybe I need to stop. Probably so. The Lord works in our lives so intricately that he knew I needed the rain to keep me from going, moving and becoming distracted from whats important. I will learn to bask in the slowness. It will take time. It will be beautiful once appreciated for what it really is. Thank you, Lord for today.
